Origin
Adversity
In May 2023 I was admitted to the ICU. Then I stopped breathing. This led to being put on a ventilator.
Since that time the health has continued to decline.
Past Year: Loss of speech and walking difficulties.
Past Several Years: Negative changes in personality and behaviors. Along with a decline in cognition and executive function.
Past Decade: Post Concussive Symptoms - Brain fog, dizziness, fatigue, light / noise sensitivity, nausea, headaches, etc.
Health provides more insight about the history and progression of symptoms.
Since the hospitalization, many doctors have been consulted. Bloodwork, scans, tests, etc. have been completed. No answers provided. Doctors know something is wrong. Yet they don’t know what is wrong.
Extended times of adversity and uncertainty can be debilitating. Even more so when the required efforts and commitment are given to improve (Health - Appendix A). Despite this work, the health continues to deteriorate. Further, the symptoms now impact executing the basics of everyday life.
Physical symptoms, ok. The mind can overcome. Mental symptoms are another matter. Lose control of the mind, lose control of the life. Experience both physical and mental symptoms, tough.
This can lead to hopelessness. Questions about the future. Some of which include:
What is the point of living? Why continue to fight?
There have been thoughts to end life. Several times. For years. Never had the courage to follow through. That or maybe it’s due to faith. Faith in there being a purpose for this adversity. Faith in there being a higher power that’s by my side to protect. Both provide hope. Hope backed with faith genenrates strength to keep fighting.
Further, there has always been belief in a higher power. A strong intuition. I’ve sensed Guardian Angels being present. Mostly in times of danger and need. It has been difficult to make sense of all this though. So I study. However, when reading books on religion and history this belief seems to weaken. Yet I still want to believe. Therefore, I remain committed to study and practice. While doing my best to maintain faith.
This led to the following experience.
May 24, 2024
I purchased these Rosaries on January 29, 2024. Then packed them away.
I took them back out on May 24. Made a commitment to carry them wherever I went. The reason, help me keep God front of mind for strength as I work through adversity.
May 25, 2024
10:23. I see this number often. Most days (for years and still to this day), I look at the clock when it’s 10:23am. Never understood why. Never thought anything of it. Likely self-programming. Habitual behavior.
This perspective changed on May 25.
I asked if there was a meaning. Pulled up Brave Browser. Typed in: “Meaning of 1023”. The results generated are from the Brave AI tool. It pulls content from various sites. Then provides summaries as featured below.
Brave AI included the highlighted text. I drew the red underlines.
The first highlight with red underline appears to be the core theme of 1023: “…new beginnings, positive change and spiritual growth”. Another core theme: “…take bold steps towards your goals, trust your intuition and have faith in the universes plan for you.”
Is this a sign? Is there a deeper meaning?
I started carrying the Rosary on May 24. The next day there’s curiosity to research the meaning of 1023. The initial insights received might provide guidance.
But why was this curiosity not there before? There have been years of opportunity. Yet I never thought about it. Why now?
Remained curious. Researched more.
The meaning of 1023 comes from Angel Numbers. Angel Numbers? Are these real?
Skeptical.
Several sites provide insights. All with a similar message. One of which, included below, puts more focus on religion. In addition to providing direction of Purpose.
Patterns. Correlations. Signs. All relevant to the situation experienced and stage of life… Been dealing with adversity. Started carrying the Rosary on May 24. Then on May 25 guidance is provided.
How? Is there a cause? Was it carrying the Rosary to keep God close?
Still can’t make sense of it. Need to dig deeper.
1023 has a meaning. Does that mean 524 (May 24) has a meaning?
Pulled up Brave Browser. Typed in: “Meaning of 524”. The first result was generated from the Brave AI tool. See the first image below. Near identical message of Angel Number 1023. Go deeper. Identify and research other sources. See the second and third images below.
“Angel number 524 is a reminder from the spiritual realm that you have powerful goals that you need to go after them right now.”
Again, near identical message of Angel Number 1023.
“You have been facing a lot of misfortunes.” Family, friends and doctors keep telling me this.
Correlations grow stronger.
Guardian Angels
The introduction of this post speaks to belief in Guardian Angels. Feeling their presence.
Angel Number 524 is associated with the Guardian Angel Lauvuel. See the first image below. Then there’s Guardian Angel Jabamiah. Responsible for overseeing those born between March 6-10. My Birthdate, March 6. See the second and third images below.
The meaning and guidance provided by Guardian Angels Lauvuel and Jabamiah align with the meaning and guidance provided within Angel Numbers 1023 and 524. The characteristics, traits and strengths of these Guardian Angels also align.
Then there’s mention of: “You are always accompanied by an army of angels.” As noted, this has always been experienced. Yet never understood.
Correlations strengthen. Continue research.
Angel & Life Path Number
There’s another concept regarding Angel Numbers. Potential association with Life Path Numbers.
Exercise: Take birthday. Then split and add numbers.
3/6/1987
3 + 6 + 1 + 9 + 8 +7 = 34
Take total. Then split and add numbers.
3 + 4 = 7
Angel / Life Path Number 7. Check meanings below. The first image was generated from the Brave AI tool. The other five are from additional sources.
The meaning of Angel / Life Path Number 7 aligns with Angel Numbers 1023 and 524. The Angel / Life Path Number 7 traits align with personal strengths. The number also speaks to the challenging situation being faced at this stage of life. Then provides reassurance of a higher power being present to support.
What happened next was more difficult to make sense of.
High Country Paradise
I purchased this Artist Proof on March 27, 2024.
The Artist features it on their Instagram page. The first two were posted on March 4, 2024 and May 5, 2024. Check the captions.
The quote from Ralph Waldo Emerson and Proverbs 3:5-6 align with core themes of Angel Numbers 1023, 524 and 7. Most notably: “…take bold steps towards your goals, trust your intuition and have faith in the universes plan for you.”
Instagram Image 1
“…take bold steps towards your goals..” (Angel Numbers)
“The prize will not be sent to you. You have to win it.” (Emerson)
Instagram Image 2
“..have faith in the universes plan for you.” (Angel Numbers)
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart…” and “He will make straight your paths.” (Proverbs)
On July 8, 2024 I looked at it more closely. Noticed it was marked 7 of 25.
As noted, 7 is my Angel / Life Path Number. I started this research on the 25th day of May.
Then on August 11, 2024 the artist posted it again. This time the message comes from Isaiah 41:10. Check the caption.
Isaiah 41:10 aligns with a core message of Angel Number 524. Specifically regarding struggle and how God along with archangels are there to support and strengthen.
Now there’s a sense of a potential higher power being present and providing guidance.
Assessment
Are Angel and Life Path Numbers accurate? Credible?
Still skeptical. There’s correlation though.
Started carrying Rosary on 5/24.
Guidance provided on 5/25 to learn the meaning of 1023. This led to research on 524, 525, 7, Guardian Angels and Life Paths.
Messaging of Angel Numbers, Guardian Angels and Life Path all align. While also being relevant to what is being experienced at this stage of life.
The Artist Proof features quotes that align with the core themes noted above. It’s also the 7th of 25 prints, which align with the numbers as well.
Correlations show patterns. Patterns indicate signs. In this situation, a sign that there might be a higher power providing guidance and strength.
Future
There’s now an intuition to follow this guidance. It’s one reason for building this platform.
Where will this go in the future? What are the long-term objectives?
Don’t know.
The current focus is to document. If others read and benefit, great. I’m simple minded though. There’s much to learn. Opportunities for growth. Publishing is a part of this process. The reason, it keeps me accountable while conditioning the mind. All of which is being done with the hope that it will help me navigate through adversity.